Always bring tears to my eyes. I guess it a little bit of being the middle child and having a fucked up childhood. Maybe that's why I hang onto things that I shouldn't, maybe its why I can find peace in a rainstorm, maybe it's why I did so much fucked up shit in my past.
Now my life is so straight, so on the right track.
Yet I still crave drama.
I have to stop this. I have to get back on the tracks and keep chugging along. I love everything I am and become... yet there is that little voice in the back of my mind that sometimes says "more".
Maybe I've had too much wine, but sometimes I just want a change, knowing it will make me unhappy.
I seriously just want to snuggle into Memphis right now, I just need to smell him. I know that makes no god damned sense.. because it doesn't, yet it makes perfect sense. I knew early on that horses were to be my life, although they took so damn long to trot right into my life.
Now I will never have it any other way. I will drive the shitbox, I will work the second job, or I will sacrifice what I love just to have a horse.
I need a good long ride in my future.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sundays
I'm fairly certain this is THE best day during the week. I don't know if it is because its my only day off, which probably is the reason, but this day is pretty freaking awesome. I've got a fresh pot of coffee on the coffee maker, a fresh batch of banana nut muffins in the oven, and happy dogs at my feet. The weather is chilly and there is a light blanket of snow on the ground, but ya know what? I'm still incredibly happy with everything.
Memphis, by the way, is doing amazing! I honestly love this horse. I'm worried that I don't have that "click" connection with him yet, but I didn't have that with Buck either in the beginning. That took about a year for Buck and I, but in the end, Buck is the ONLY dog for me. Buck knows it too, he always wants "mama" whenever I'm around and I'm fairly certain that he would do just about anything to please me. I have to admit, I am known to sit on the floor with him, my head on his chest, and baby talk him while rubbing his ears. He may be 120lbs, but he is the biggest baby I have ever known. Which, I guess in one light is a great thing, as I have about 3 families and friends that have told me that they will take him if I am ever not able to care for him.
Sunday's are good for rambling on and on too :D
Back to Memphis. I think we have the bolting out of the stall thing taken care of, and by "we", I mean Fair (which will be a pseudonym for my trainer lady from here on out) has this taken care of. She spends seven days a week with my big dumb animal, so she,unfortunately, has to deal with more of his antics than I do. There isn't much, I honestly think he is an all around good horse and I hope to have him for the rest of his goofy life. He just has the bolting out of the stall and pawing when bored.
I was out with him on Weds night last week to groom him, since I figured he would be muddy. He was actually pretty clean and was a very good boy for grooming. He just stands there and lets it happen. He is iffy about his hooves, which I wonder if the front ones aren't sore because he paws so dagon much at feeding time. I'm waiting on the farrier atm and while his hooves aren't "bad" by any means, I am beyond anal about horse care. Any who, Memphis like I said is a little iffy about his front feet being picked, but is usually fine with the backs. He gets the one, two, three method that I had used with Dodge for discipline and it seems to work VERY well with him. He has a good head on his shoulders and learns quickly.
I've only ridden him twice since I've had him because it has been MUDDY. Where he is stabled at, it has a water drainage issue. So while he is safe and dry in the barn, the pasture tends to get standing pools of water and it has nowhere to go. I'm too concerned about my safety and Memphis's safety to take the chance. Which is fine, we can work on ground work and just basically get to know one another better.
I know what I want to work on in the spring with him with riding. I hope to do plenty of trail riding and hope to buy a trailer by summers end so that I can take him to the trails safely. I'm sure Fair won't mind to trailer him with her as long as I come help her with the trail rides next year, but there are going to be times where I'm not going to want to do the same trail over and over again.
I also hope to start him on some poles and get some bending happening as I want to start working him in patterns.I need to get him responsive to leg and get him neck reining. In a few years I hope he is a responsive horse that is my "trusty steed".
Anywho, I'm going out to see him today, so I hope to get some pictures and what not!
Memphis, by the way, is doing amazing! I honestly love this horse. I'm worried that I don't have that "click" connection with him yet, but I didn't have that with Buck either in the beginning. That took about a year for Buck and I, but in the end, Buck is the ONLY dog for me. Buck knows it too, he always wants "mama" whenever I'm around and I'm fairly certain that he would do just about anything to please me. I have to admit, I am known to sit on the floor with him, my head on his chest, and baby talk him while rubbing his ears. He may be 120lbs, but he is the biggest baby I have ever known. Which, I guess in one light is a great thing, as I have about 3 families and friends that have told me that they will take him if I am ever not able to care for him.
Sunday's are good for rambling on and on too :D
Back to Memphis. I think we have the bolting out of the stall thing taken care of, and by "we", I mean Fair (which will be a pseudonym for my trainer lady from here on out) has this taken care of. She spends seven days a week with my big dumb animal, so she,unfortunately, has to deal with more of his antics than I do. There isn't much, I honestly think he is an all around good horse and I hope to have him for the rest of his goofy life. He just has the bolting out of the stall and pawing when bored.
I was out with him on Weds night last week to groom him, since I figured he would be muddy. He was actually pretty clean and was a very good boy for grooming. He just stands there and lets it happen. He is iffy about his hooves, which I wonder if the front ones aren't sore because he paws so dagon much at feeding time. I'm waiting on the farrier atm and while his hooves aren't "bad" by any means, I am beyond anal about horse care. Any who, Memphis like I said is a little iffy about his front feet being picked, but is usually fine with the backs. He gets the one, two, three method that I had used with Dodge for discipline and it seems to work VERY well with him. He has a good head on his shoulders and learns quickly.
I've only ridden him twice since I've had him because it has been MUDDY. Where he is stabled at, it has a water drainage issue. So while he is safe and dry in the barn, the pasture tends to get standing pools of water and it has nowhere to go. I'm too concerned about my safety and Memphis's safety to take the chance. Which is fine, we can work on ground work and just basically get to know one another better.
I know what I want to work on in the spring with him with riding. I hope to do plenty of trail riding and hope to buy a trailer by summers end so that I can take him to the trails safely. I'm sure Fair won't mind to trailer him with her as long as I come help her with the trail rides next year, but there are going to be times where I'm not going to want to do the same trail over and over again.
I also hope to start him on some poles and get some bending happening as I want to start working him in patterns.I need to get him responsive to leg and get him neck reining. In a few years I hope he is a responsive horse that is my "trusty steed".
Anywho, I'm going out to see him today, so I hope to get some pictures and what not!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Mephis
So I bought another horse! Lets just say bring on the horse expenses is an understatement.
500 - The horse himself
30 - To move him
25 - Farrier
14 - Wormer
250 - Board
65 - Pulling the Coggins
17 - Two buckets for stall
I'm sure I'm forgetting something somewhere but this is all the immediate up front costs to bringing him home. Yikes.
He has the same issue Dodge did which is rushing out of the stall. I asked around for some advice and have a game plan in my head. I know he is just testing me to see what he can get away with and I try to be somewhat fair in how I treat my animals. On Friday we are going to work our asses off at the stall scenario. I'll get him.
In all he is what I wanted: 15 hands or taller, Tennesse Walking Horse, and a easy goig disposition. Oh and to be gaited, he has WONDERFUL gaits. On Sunday I'll work with him more with that and hopefully come to a understanding with him. (I said hopefully, not expecting miracles here.)
I'll get pics up soon, I'm too lazy to copy and paste.
500 - The horse himself
30 - To move him
25 - Farrier
14 - Wormer
250 - Board
65 - Pulling the Coggins
17 - Two buckets for stall
I'm sure I'm forgetting something somewhere but this is all the immediate up front costs to bringing him home. Yikes.
He has the same issue Dodge did which is rushing out of the stall. I asked around for some advice and have a game plan in my head. I know he is just testing me to see what he can get away with and I try to be somewhat fair in how I treat my animals. On Friday we are going to work our asses off at the stall scenario. I'll get him.
In all he is what I wanted: 15 hands or taller, Tennesse Walking Horse, and a easy goig disposition. Oh and to be gaited, he has WONDERFUL gaits. On Sunday I'll work with him more with that and hopefully come to a understanding with him. (I said hopefully, not expecting miracles here.)
I'll get pics up soon, I'm too lazy to copy and paste.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
So long time no post!
I've either been too busy to post or just have not had the energy to post. Lets see here.... I started school again, but this time I'm just going to take it S.L.O.W. I am working at the insurance company and still do not have a new horse. I see a prospect that I'm going to look at on Friday, so we'll see. I REALLY just want another gaited horse, like really really. Dodge spoiled me in the ways of riding.
Chickens are doing great, the rooster is mating with my two oldest hens and their eggs are coming out fertilized. ( you can crack and egg and see if it is.) Yes, we are eating the fertilized eggs. They are yum :D I am still waiting on my younger ones to freaking lay, they are 24 weeks now. The only one that looks close is my easter egger, she is getting red in the face and comb. I hope she lays green eggs! *crosses fingers*
Not much else, but I do hope to start posting more, I really do. With pictures!
Chickens are doing great, the rooster is mating with my two oldest hens and their eggs are coming out fertilized. ( you can crack and egg and see if it is.) Yes, we are eating the fertilized eggs. They are yum :D I am still waiting on my younger ones to freaking lay, they are 24 weeks now. The only one that looks close is my easter egger, she is getting red in the face and comb. I hope she lays green eggs! *crosses fingers*
Not much else, but I do hope to start posting more, I really do. With pictures!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Ack, how to have the bank account take a beating!
This month has been hard on the pocket book. First Buck had to go to the vet.... twice... for that thing on his face. That was 180 total for both visits. (this is why I love my vet.) Next up is car registration, I have just plum forgot about it and I need to go get it done. So there is 250 out the door. Next up is our gym membership which I forgot to change my credit card on...... goodbye 100 bucks. I need to pay my dentist, 70 bucks. Then all of our other monthly bills. Sigh. Thankfully Buck's bills are getting paid off through working at AutoZone. I did tell Joe that we are eating our blow money this month and whatever extra he makes at work needs to go into the account. He's not happy about it, but understands it. Thank god next month I can work full time! Then we need to pay for my school, which is 3800 bucks. Ouch. We need to cash in a mutual fund we have been saving for that. Need to cash in another mutual fund to fund our savings (don't really need that fund anymore)
Thankfully the other mutual funds have all been converted to Roth IRA's, including Joe's traditional IRA. Our goal there is to get an IRA open for me in December, granted we get our savings built up to our 10k goal, which if the spending of bills on stupid crap stops, we should have no problem doing.
My plan in August is to work as much as freaking humanely possible. Since I won't have school to slow me down I should be able to work every single Sat and or Sun that month. Which will be nice and go into savings. I will be so burnt out by the time this is all said and done. But in December when I finish my fall semester, we have our 10k in the bank, and we are finally able to focus on paying off the house, it will totally be worth it. It's just a daunting task to start out at.
This post should have gone in my debt thread, but eh, I just post here more often. And besides, we don't have any other debt but the house. Which we hope to have paid off in 5 years. *crosses fingers*
Thankfully the other mutual funds have all been converted to Roth IRA's, including Joe's traditional IRA. Our goal there is to get an IRA open for me in December, granted we get our savings built up to our 10k goal, which if the spending of bills on stupid crap stops, we should have no problem doing.
My plan in August is to work as much as freaking humanely possible. Since I won't have school to slow me down I should be able to work every single Sat and or Sun that month. Which will be nice and go into savings. I will be so burnt out by the time this is all said and done. But in December when I finish my fall semester, we have our 10k in the bank, and we are finally able to focus on paying off the house, it will totally be worth it. It's just a daunting task to start out at.
This post should have gone in my debt thread, but eh, I just post here more often. And besides, we don't have any other debt but the house. Which we hope to have paid off in 5 years. *crosses fingers*
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Gosh I should post more....
Life is going good right now. I currently have an A in physics and a C in chemistry. Why a C and not a goddamned B? because I missed a few things on the last test and took my B to a C. Not happy or proud about it, but I will figure it out.
Chickens are doing fine, getting ready to take them off their starter feed and switch them to a adult feed you could say. Since I do have a mixed age flock, I've been trying to figure out what to feed them. I think I have settled on a game bird feed for the time being. Something that is 18% protein and non-medicated. I dunno yet though, I need to call the feed store and talk to them. Stupid chickens.
So we were going to build a run that was fully enclosed so the girls couldn't get out. But we kinda stopped the enclosure where the top door was supposed to be and the girls get out. I don't particularly care, as long as they stay in our yard, which they have been. They can fly about 3.5 feet, well not all of them. The Jersey Giants seem to not care so much about flying, I hardly ever find them in the yard. I rather like the Jersey Giants and my Dominiques... the easter eggers though? Screw those birds, it's fun to have green eggs but not so much to deal with their stupid stupid natures.
I sold two birds to a family that wanted chickens for their kids. I sold them the Jersey Giants as those are known to be a good docile breed and good with kids. I have one confirmed rooster and its a Jersey Giant. I'll get some pics of him tonight, he isn't crowing yet and it could be a good long time before he does. We may keep him depending on how loud/annoying his crow is.
I sanded the run down with about 2 inches of sand, I need about 4 more inches. About 800lbs more of sand. Off to home depot this weekend to get more. Everywhere I've read has said that sand is the best medium for the run because it offers excellent drainage and it dries to fast. So far I like it and I will do just about anything to keep the smell to a bare minimum. I had friends over that didn't even know I had chickens until I showed them. They said that they were expecting my yard to smell. Nope, no smell here.
Farmers markets are abounding everywhere! Next weekend I plan to hit a few and stock up on tomatoes and peppers and then spend Sunday canning. My tomato plants outside I've not allowed to set tomatoes until they get a little bigger, so they have more time to go before they give me what I want. I also am sick of weeds and grass in the garden and have decided that this Sunday I am covering the entire thing but the tomatoes in contractors plastic. I'll let it die and remove the plastic in the fall. Which will work because then the chickens can finish picking up the mess for me. They are awesome little foliage killers.
What else, what else.
Chickens are doing fine, getting ready to take them off their starter feed and switch them to a adult feed you could say. Since I do have a mixed age flock, I've been trying to figure out what to feed them. I think I have settled on a game bird feed for the time being. Something that is 18% protein and non-medicated. I dunno yet though, I need to call the feed store and talk to them. Stupid chickens.
So we were going to build a run that was fully enclosed so the girls couldn't get out. But we kinda stopped the enclosure where the top door was supposed to be and the girls get out. I don't particularly care, as long as they stay in our yard, which they have been. They can fly about 3.5 feet, well not all of them. The Jersey Giants seem to not care so much about flying, I hardly ever find them in the yard. I rather like the Jersey Giants and my Dominiques... the easter eggers though? Screw those birds, it's fun to have green eggs but not so much to deal with their stupid stupid natures.
I sold two birds to a family that wanted chickens for their kids. I sold them the Jersey Giants as those are known to be a good docile breed and good with kids. I have one confirmed rooster and its a Jersey Giant. I'll get some pics of him tonight, he isn't crowing yet and it could be a good long time before he does. We may keep him depending on how loud/annoying his crow is.
I sanded the run down with about 2 inches of sand, I need about 4 more inches. About 800lbs more of sand. Off to home depot this weekend to get more. Everywhere I've read has said that sand is the best medium for the run because it offers excellent drainage and it dries to fast. So far I like it and I will do just about anything to keep the smell to a bare minimum. I had friends over that didn't even know I had chickens until I showed them. They said that they were expecting my yard to smell. Nope, no smell here.
Farmers markets are abounding everywhere! Next weekend I plan to hit a few and stock up on tomatoes and peppers and then spend Sunday canning. My tomato plants outside I've not allowed to set tomatoes until they get a little bigger, so they have more time to go before they give me what I want. I also am sick of weeds and grass in the garden and have decided that this Sunday I am covering the entire thing but the tomatoes in contractors plastic. I'll let it die and remove the plastic in the fall. Which will work because then the chickens can finish picking up the mess for me. They are awesome little foliage killers.
What else, what else.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Whew!
Long time no post! I have been super duper busy lately and getting the time to come in and post has been a doozy.
The chickens are doing great! Everybody is outside in our coop/run and they are lean mean eating machines. They have already eaten all the grass in the run and I think its only been 3 weeks! Fine by me, in the next week or so we are going to fill the run with sand. From everything I've read it keeps the run dry, the smell down, and chickens like to dust bath in it. Although, atm I do not smell anything in or around the run, but I would like to keep it that way. Probably pick up a bag of the horse stall dry out stuff as well to help facilitate my goals.
They have almost gone through the 50lb bag of food and getting ready to open the next one. Surprisingly, they don't eat as much as I had anticipated, though I expect this to change the larger they get. Dinner has a kill date of about 2-4 weeks. She still is psycho bird, so she has to go. I have not handled the little ones very much to know who gets the slit there and who stays. I guess it will be a random guess when that time comes.
As far as the garden goes, yuck. I left it to seed last year, which I know was a huge mistake. At this point I am going to buy some of the contractor black plastic and cover over half the garden with it. This has a two fold effect - it essentially kills everything underneath it and it will make next year a breeze at garden prep. I thought of letting the girls take care of it and am still entertaining that idea, but that would mean building something for them to stay in. That is not out of my realm of stuff to do. I could put 4-5 of them in a box type set up, something that I can move once they kill that area of ground. It would be cheap since I have the chicken wire and plenty of leftover wood. Hell, I may just do it.
School is going good. I am actually taking the time to study this time around, which is new to me. I know when my answers are wrong and get really frustrated if their not right. Tomorrow is my first test and I'm slightly nervous. I'll post up how that goes. Other than that, everything is just dandy.
The chickens are doing great! Everybody is outside in our coop/run and they are lean mean eating machines. They have already eaten all the grass in the run and I think its only been 3 weeks! Fine by me, in the next week or so we are going to fill the run with sand. From everything I've read it keeps the run dry, the smell down, and chickens like to dust bath in it. Although, atm I do not smell anything in or around the run, but I would like to keep it that way. Probably pick up a bag of the horse stall dry out stuff as well to help facilitate my goals.
They have almost gone through the 50lb bag of food and getting ready to open the next one. Surprisingly, they don't eat as much as I had anticipated, though I expect this to change the larger they get. Dinner has a kill date of about 2-4 weeks. She still is psycho bird, so she has to go. I have not handled the little ones very much to know who gets the slit there and who stays. I guess it will be a random guess when that time comes.
As far as the garden goes, yuck. I left it to seed last year, which I know was a huge mistake. At this point I am going to buy some of the contractor black plastic and cover over half the garden with it. This has a two fold effect - it essentially kills everything underneath it and it will make next year a breeze at garden prep. I thought of letting the girls take care of it and am still entertaining that idea, but that would mean building something for them to stay in. That is not out of my realm of stuff to do. I could put 4-5 of them in a box type set up, something that I can move once they kill that area of ground. It would be cheap since I have the chicken wire and plenty of leftover wood. Hell, I may just do it.
School is going good. I am actually taking the time to study this time around, which is new to me. I know when my answers are wrong and get really frustrated if their not right. Tomorrow is my first test and I'm slightly nervous. I'll post up how that goes. Other than that, everything is just dandy.
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