Friday, October 23, 2009

Life and some me post...

I am in love with Gary Allen and his music. I've been listening to it alot lately and I can say that he is one of my favorites. I think it's amazing to walk back in time with my life. This is not what I thought would happen and god damn I had more stupid mistakes that could have honestly ended up in turmoil. For fun, since this is an open blog and I really don't give a shit, let's go over a couple. This could be a metric ass ton of fun.

Skipping School:

I was a pro at this. It didn't start till I was in middle school. I used to act like I was getting ready for school then just never leave. Fake sick if needed. I was a pro, or so I thought. I got caught once and brought back to school. Once. I'll never forget it. But I'll also never forget all the fun I had while not in school. Oh those were the days.

First Loves:

I had so many of these, I even made my friends a little jealous. Apparently I was cute or something because I didn't really have a period where I was worried about a boyfriend. I always went for the older guys, why I dunno. That's how I met my ex. That dumb mother fucker, but it is how I met him. He was older and could buy me ciggs.... go me. I know, I'm a fucking loser, but damn, I was 15. I remember one of my friends liking this one guy a lot and he ended up wanting me. I didn't want him, but ya know. It was a jab for me. I don't see myself as hot or anything and to have a guy want me over a friend? That's just plain odd.

Haha! I remember when my first "boyfriend" tried to kiss me. I broke up with him. HAHAHAHa that is a good memory. I also remember the first guy I slept with. I met him maybe 3 times. Looking back the only reason I slept with him was to impress my friends. Yeah, I'm a freaking winner. Thankfully, I didn't turn into a whore after that and can still count all my lovers on one hand. Unlike some of my friends..... and there are quite a few of them...

My first Tattoo:

I love my first tattoo and want another one. Joe is vehemently against it. Why, I will never know. But I will have another and it is going to be on my foot. Hopefully in the next few weeks I will start looking for artists. Though, lots of people ask "Why a Gecko?" I do not have an answer for them. It was what I wanted and it's what still makes me smile when I look at it. I do not regret it even almost 10 years later.

I want my next one to be about Dodge. I know, bittersweet. I need to find an artist to tell the story to and to be what I can't draw. I do not want a horse tattoo'd on me, I want something that has a lot of meaning and is powerful. I want this decision to be left on my mind forever. I miss Dodge every morning I wake up. I want to go nuzzle her so bad. I want to be frustrated again. I want to incorporate so much love and so much anger into one area of my body. It will be interesting.

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