Just upset

I'm a little upset today. I'm letting my fears of being hurt stopping me from enjoying my horse. I'm also letting his "problems" stopping me from really being attached to him. I am going to take him down to a half ration of sweet feed and put him on a no sugar feed for the other half. I'm hoping that brings down his activity levels some. He is a hyper horse and I'm starting to come to the conclusion that the sweet feed has a lot to do with it. I was going to talk to the barn owner yesterday but she wasn't home. I stuck around for an hour yesterday waiting on her but oh well.

I played with Memphis quite a bit. He did test me some in hand, which I think is just from nobody working with him. That is my fault, not his. It's a nice cool day though today so I'm thinking of going back down there and lunging him some and then working in hand again. Some walking and engaging some movements on the ground. That will be good for him, make him think.

I am also going to go ahead and request that he be put in a field by himself. Her fields are set up so that he will see other horses, just not allowed to interact. I'm hoping that the change in feed will help calm him down and then we can reintroduce other horses. This is my hope. Every time I think of her saying how he bolts out of the stall like an idiot and then acts like an idiot in the field in the morning, this just says ENERGY to me. If it comes down to it, I will work out the board price with her and just put him strictly on a low starch feed that either I provide or she provides. This week is me getting prices on this stuff.

Oh horses, drive me crazy. I just need Memphis to hold out for a year or two till we move.


Baby is doing fine. Think I felt the sucker move a few days ago, it was just a flutter, but I know it wasn't anything else but it. Makes me a little bit more excited. I got a baby coming, holy shit!