Always bring tears to my eyes. I guess it a little bit of being the middle child and having a fucked up childhood. Maybe that's why I hang onto things that I shouldn't, maybe its why I can find peace in a rainstorm, maybe it's why I did so much fucked up shit in my past.
Now my life is so straight, so on the right track.
Yet I still crave drama.
I have to stop this. I have to get back on the tracks and keep chugging along. I love everything I am and become... yet there is that little voice in the back of my mind that sometimes says "more".
Maybe I've had too much wine, but sometimes I just want a change, knowing it will make me unhappy.
I seriously just want to snuggle into Memphis right now, I just need to smell him. I know that makes no god damned sense.. because it doesn't, yet it makes perfect sense. I knew early on that horses were to be my life, although they took so damn long to trot right into my life.
Now I will never have it any other way. I will drive the shitbox, I will work the second job, or I will sacrifice what I love just to have a horse.
I need a good long ride in my future.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sundays
I'm fairly certain this is THE best day during the week. I don't know if it is because its my only day off, which probably is the reason, but this day is pretty freaking awesome. I've got a fresh pot of coffee on the coffee maker, a fresh batch of banana nut muffins in the oven, and happy dogs at my feet. The weather is chilly and there is a light blanket of snow on the ground, but ya know what? I'm still incredibly happy with everything.
Memphis, by the way, is doing amazing! I honestly love this horse. I'm worried that I don't have that "click" connection with him yet, but I didn't have that with Buck either in the beginning. That took about a year for Buck and I, but in the end, Buck is the ONLY dog for me. Buck knows it too, he always wants "mama" whenever I'm around and I'm fairly certain that he would do just about anything to please me. I have to admit, I am known to sit on the floor with him, my head on his chest, and baby talk him while rubbing his ears. He may be 120lbs, but he is the biggest baby I have ever known. Which, I guess in one light is a great thing, as I have about 3 families and friends that have told me that they will take him if I am ever not able to care for him.
Sunday's are good for rambling on and on too :D
Back to Memphis. I think we have the bolting out of the stall thing taken care of, and by "we", I mean Fair (which will be a pseudonym for my trainer lady from here on out) has this taken care of. She spends seven days a week with my big dumb animal, so she,unfortunately, has to deal with more of his antics than I do. There isn't much, I honestly think he is an all around good horse and I hope to have him for the rest of his goofy life. He just has the bolting out of the stall and pawing when bored.
I was out with him on Weds night last week to groom him, since I figured he would be muddy. He was actually pretty clean and was a very good boy for grooming. He just stands there and lets it happen. He is iffy about his hooves, which I wonder if the front ones aren't sore because he paws so dagon much at feeding time. I'm waiting on the farrier atm and while his hooves aren't "bad" by any means, I am beyond anal about horse care. Any who, Memphis like I said is a little iffy about his front feet being picked, but is usually fine with the backs. He gets the one, two, three method that I had used with Dodge for discipline and it seems to work VERY well with him. He has a good head on his shoulders and learns quickly.
I've only ridden him twice since I've had him because it has been MUDDY. Where he is stabled at, it has a water drainage issue. So while he is safe and dry in the barn, the pasture tends to get standing pools of water and it has nowhere to go. I'm too concerned about my safety and Memphis's safety to take the chance. Which is fine, we can work on ground work and just basically get to know one another better.
I know what I want to work on in the spring with him with riding. I hope to do plenty of trail riding and hope to buy a trailer by summers end so that I can take him to the trails safely. I'm sure Fair won't mind to trailer him with her as long as I come help her with the trail rides next year, but there are going to be times where I'm not going to want to do the same trail over and over again.
I also hope to start him on some poles and get some bending happening as I want to start working him in patterns.I need to get him responsive to leg and get him neck reining. In a few years I hope he is a responsive horse that is my "trusty steed".
Anywho, I'm going out to see him today, so I hope to get some pictures and what not!
Memphis, by the way, is doing amazing! I honestly love this horse. I'm worried that I don't have that "click" connection with him yet, but I didn't have that with Buck either in the beginning. That took about a year for Buck and I, but in the end, Buck is the ONLY dog for me. Buck knows it too, he always wants "mama" whenever I'm around and I'm fairly certain that he would do just about anything to please me. I have to admit, I am known to sit on the floor with him, my head on his chest, and baby talk him while rubbing his ears. He may be 120lbs, but he is the biggest baby I have ever known. Which, I guess in one light is a great thing, as I have about 3 families and friends that have told me that they will take him if I am ever not able to care for him.
Sunday's are good for rambling on and on too :D
Back to Memphis. I think we have the bolting out of the stall thing taken care of, and by "we", I mean Fair (which will be a pseudonym for my trainer lady from here on out) has this taken care of. She spends seven days a week with my big dumb animal, so she,unfortunately, has to deal with more of his antics than I do. There isn't much, I honestly think he is an all around good horse and I hope to have him for the rest of his goofy life. He just has the bolting out of the stall and pawing when bored.
I was out with him on Weds night last week to groom him, since I figured he would be muddy. He was actually pretty clean and was a very good boy for grooming. He just stands there and lets it happen. He is iffy about his hooves, which I wonder if the front ones aren't sore because he paws so dagon much at feeding time. I'm waiting on the farrier atm and while his hooves aren't "bad" by any means, I am beyond anal about horse care. Any who, Memphis like I said is a little iffy about his front feet being picked, but is usually fine with the backs. He gets the one, two, three method that I had used with Dodge for discipline and it seems to work VERY well with him. He has a good head on his shoulders and learns quickly.
I've only ridden him twice since I've had him because it has been MUDDY. Where he is stabled at, it has a water drainage issue. So while he is safe and dry in the barn, the pasture tends to get standing pools of water and it has nowhere to go. I'm too concerned about my safety and Memphis's safety to take the chance. Which is fine, we can work on ground work and just basically get to know one another better.
I know what I want to work on in the spring with him with riding. I hope to do plenty of trail riding and hope to buy a trailer by summers end so that I can take him to the trails safely. I'm sure Fair won't mind to trailer him with her as long as I come help her with the trail rides next year, but there are going to be times where I'm not going to want to do the same trail over and over again.
I also hope to start him on some poles and get some bending happening as I want to start working him in patterns.I need to get him responsive to leg and get him neck reining. In a few years I hope he is a responsive horse that is my "trusty steed".
Anywho, I'm going out to see him today, so I hope to get some pictures and what not!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)